Motivation

Admitting to yourself that you need help with something - whether it be weight loss, style, anger - is easy. You know deep inside what you need to change, you know you need help, and you tell yourself that you will slowly reach your goal.

Telling a complete stranger why you're fat is a whole different story. Telling a stranger that No, you Don't Cook, is embarassing, to say the least. Showing me a fifty year old that has a better body than me, well, that's great.

That was me, this morning, asking about a personal trainer. I've figured everything out, and hopefully I can pay for it this week and start next week. I really want to lose weight, and they've guaranteed me to lose a lot of weight by Christmas... I really am excited to start this, but I don't know why it has to be so difficult.

I look at Gwen Stefani's flat abs as motivation, but at the same time there's a bolt of disbelief mixed with annoyance. Why don't I look like that after having a baby?? Hopefully with a lot of hard work I'll make it too!